Flex Points, be on your guard!!

Tomorrow my family is celebrating my sisters birthday so as is tradition with us, we're ordering in chinese food. I should be okay, but I'm "using my flex points" and being careful the rest of the day. Anyfloo, I weighed myself today and I lost 2 lbs! :D rounds us to a total of 7lbs!!! and I am just so happy and content with this. It helps that my mom has been doing a sort of diet as well, so we're often plotting together and making boca burgers for lunch.

Oh man. Boca burgers. Soy product goodness. haha! I am in LOVE with them. I've gotten to calling myself a boring eater because I'm happy making these everyday for my lunch. What I love about them is not really the taste --They aren't bad, but not exactly something I'd drool over. but the fact that I can have 1 pattie on a flat roll with cheese, mustard and onions (cheeseburger, much?) for4-5 points and I am legit FULL. :D Gosh, and I usually drink a 20 oz bottle of water with my meals, so sometimes I'm like, "Oof" full. It's the best. I've been on weight watchers a million times, but never have I found something that made me legit full. It's very exciting.

So I'm going strong! still doing 1 hour, 5x a week.... and I don't think I'll be bumping that up for a little while yet.. But it's so exciting to see the changes in my body!!

:D

HEY! Weighed myself today anddd.... I've lost 5 lbs! :D Yesssss!

Dear pilates and treadmill, I LOVE YOU! Lets keep up the good work!

My endurance on the tread is sloooooooowly building. I'm getting closer to walking at 3mph for my whole round.... but not quite. I average around 2.7 for my 30 minute. Also raising my incline :)

Yayyyy I'll just be happy today now. haha!

Alo alo!

Well lets see. I just came back from visiting my college for a few days. I graduated last May and this has been the first chance I've had to get up there. Unfortunately it was break and no one was on campus. I still got to see a couple friends and my music teachers.

I did not work out at all XD and I was afraid for two reasons when i got back home: 1) that I would have gained & 2) I would have gotten off routine of working out and wouldn't be able to motivate myself.

I was wrong on both counts! I maintained my weight, which is GREAT. Seeing my friends was more like "Lets go have delicious, fatty dinner!" plus my hostess was like "I bought you delicious food of which we shall eat constantly!!"

Today I got up and had no issues with doing my usual 1 hour workout! I actually thought about walking on the treadmill for longer than my usual 30 minutes, but my legs were all "Grr 8% incline :(((" So I obliged them and hopped off.

It was a fun trip though. 7 hour drives suck, but what to do!

This monday I'm HOPING that I can hit the 5 lb marker. Oh how I'd love to lose some weight before ordering my bridesmaid dress for my sister's wedding. And I hope when we do the sizing for them that they'll need to be majorly taken in.

I'm making my sister's birthday cake today... Wish me luck. I love baking, I also love eating the baking. Boo!

Maybe if I'm bored later I'll walk on the tread some more

Welcome welcome!

Hello! I'm Jane... well, as far as you know ;)

Lets cut to the chase. I am basically obese. As much as I hate to admit that. I look in the mirror and I don't see me anymore. I hate that; I hate that a lot. I had another online journal, but I needed something, somewhere I could write about my attempts at finally kicking the 80 lbs to get to my goal weight. I have been struggling with weight my entire life. I've been on a million different diets. Once I was 20 lbs away from my goal, but I got too comfortable or something and I gained it back... and then some, at this point. I know this isn't going to be easy. I'm an emotional eater, I'm a boredom eater, I'm lazy and unmotivated and these are things I need to change.

I want to use this journal for anything and everything that has to do with me and my weight. If I'm stressed and I want to eat, I intend to come here to vent instead. If I want to talk about how excited I am about walking a certain distance, I'll come here. You get the idea. :)

I just started trying to turn my life around, I'm starting to walk on my treadmill... I hope that within a month or two I'll be able to jog for more than 5 minutes, haha. But for now, I'm just trying to get myself motivated. I'm doing pilates too, which I love. It's very amusing to attempt some of the moves that having a gut kind of limits. I'm getting better though.

Having a guy in my life used to motivate me, but it's been a while, and I need to learn how to do something for myself, anyway.

As for diets, I'm doing weight watchers. Not officially, I don't go to meetings, but the general point system.

For now I won't say my weight number, because I really don't think that matters. I'll tell you the facts.

Pants: 20

Shirt: XXL

I'll post when those change. Though it will probably be a while.