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Hello!

It's Sunday, I know. But I knew I wouldn't get here tomorrow, so here I am!

Lets see... I had been thinking about my scale. I know it weighs me over, and I think, for a time I had been generous with how much I was taking off. Not by a lot mind you. Ok, maybe a bit. But anyway, I'm trying to be more honest about the actually reality of my weight loss. Last week, I lost about 4lbs. This week, I lost about 3. Well, mind you, I gained quite a bit of weight over the first half of the year. But I am actually losing weight again now. (from where my marker is) and so I'll say to you that this week I dropped just 1lb, bringing me to -64!

I'm so excited though. I'm looking good again, and I'm feeling SO much more confidant. *hopefully* I will hit -65 next monday!

Ooooookay.

Well. Well. Ugh. I'm still at -63, but I suppose that's not a bad thing as I've been doing zumba and hopefully gaining a little muscle back. Still, I'm going to do my best to not get discouraged and keep at it. :)

None the less, I need to do my weekly updates!

Diet: Restart.

Ok. ok. I feel like such a big diet failure here. A whole year of being a Weight Watchers success story and then 7 months of it slowly dying. I have spent the past month trying different techniques to get myself back into the groove of things, and well... I think I finally did. I have made myself an elaborate chart (without going stupidly overboard) to make sure I...

1. Workout 5 times a week (5 little blanks to check off)

2. Drink 20 cups of water everyday (I tried taking it down to 15... but it didn't cut it for me. I am sincerely bizarre.)

3. Stay within my daily points (which atm, is 24, but going down to 23 very soon. Boo.)

Of course, I also have my trusty notebook on my desk where I jot down my accumulating points. I was never able to do the whole "I ate____, and ______" I just write down numbers and move on. If I'm writing for the future of my day I'll note that it's for dinner, or drinks, etc. but even then I usually know.

I'm almost back to -65, and should be by monday if all goes well. :)

Hi, I'm Jane, I'm a stress, boredom, emotional eating addict. I will kick this. I will be seen and unhidden by this layer of fat.

I will conquer this!

Oh my goodness, I'm back again. How many months has it been?

Well I've moved with my parents to Georgia, and it is a beautiful state, I really have to admit, but it's huge! But hearing about that is not why you're here.

In January things started to go crazy personally and socially. My routine of good workout and diet... died. In April things for the move started going full steam and I really couldn't work out very much and with that diet remained dead.

Well, I come to you ~5 lbs gained, a lot of muscle lost, and incredibly untone (well, as tone as one can be with this much flab hanging off them) I'm so eager, so incredibly motivated to get back into gear. I don't want to snack, I don't want to eat a lot, I want to work out like a crazy fitness junkie! (and those who have been around me lately can vouch that this is all true)

I still have a bit more of summer to get through where people will expect me to eat and not work out... I'm going to do my best to stay with it as best I can before my friend beats me up for "starving myself". Also, I'm going to Alabama to meet my boyfriend's family at the end of the month, so thats a different story all together. I will eat whatever they put in front of me (as long as it doesn't make me vomit :D)

So, long story short, hiatus is almost over, but I'm working hard when I can, to get jump started back into this thing!!

Woo!

Look at me, all writing an update on monday when I'm supposed to! :)

I did a bootcamp/jump-start week. It was rough, and probably not the healthiest thing I could have done, but I think I needed to do something drastic to get me back on track. I ate very little. I tried to stick to about 15-18 points a day, I worked out 6/7 days this week (and now my feet are sore!!) but I did what I set out to do! I hit -70! Crazy. Feels good to finally make a new mark on the board though.

I'm kind of disappointed I haven't made it into 14s quite yet. I definitely thought I would be by now. Maybe it was just the pair I tried on, but... still too small. But maybe I'll try again in a few pounds. I'm starting to walk again, so my lower body should be catching up with my upper soon, I hope.

Lastly, I think I'm going to kick up to losing 100lbs. I want to at least be in a 12 by the end of this and I thought I would be safe on that by 160, but it's not shaping up to be that way, so I shall press on. hopefully things will move a little quicker now. Feels good to be in the best shape of my life though. :)

Total Loss: -70/100

Update!

Hey everyone (no one)!

I know I know, I suck at this. It has been such a huge struggle over the past few months. between stress over moving, my boyfriend visiting and lady times, I have been lucky that i've maintained. I'm getting back on track though. I actually stayed within my points yesterday, which was... sadly, pretty exciting for me. I've been doing good with water though, so I think that's been a big help. I'm really thinking i'm getting back to a good place now, so hopefully the next time I update I can actually say I've lost something!! It would be SO nice to finally mark something off on my bathroom whiteboard. The last time I did was in January so it's kind of frustrating as I was going REALLY well, monthly losing 5 lbs. But it's never too late to get back on track! :) I'm eager and motivated to keep going. It's getting warmer, so hopefully i'll get myself back out on the trail, though for now i'm hitting up flat abs like it's my job just to get a jump start.

Come On, You Can Do It!

So I have been very mad at my weekly updates (except my occasional thursday post) but I promise I'll get better. I've just been a little frustrated. Mostly with myself.

I've been rather idle lately, due to the cold, renovators wandering around my house, add more excuses if you like. But anyway, I spend a lot of time watching TV or DVDs... and I'm a muncher, so while I'm watching I like to snack so thats been throwing me off, even though I'm not doing TERRIBLY, I still end up going 4-5 points over my daily allotment (23) so the next day I get frustrated.

I've been working out when I can, which as I said, with renovators wandering around my house all the time (no joke.) and I never know exactly when they're coming (usually around 11, but they've come at 9:30a, 2pm, 12pm.. you get the picture. Can't pin point them) I can't zumba... because I'm just not doing that with people in the house. But! On the bright side, it's getting warmer outside, so I've been walking the trail on days the weather isn't bad and I have the time. :) I also find that on days I've worked out, I'm more motivated to do everything else right according to my diet.

You know, it's discouraging that such a short time not being on a diet can so disrupt my diet-life in general. And it legit terrifies me that I could lose it. I've gotten so far and conquered so many aspects of my being. Although I find it kind of ironic that I would lose it at the same weight where I lost it before. Another barrier to break, eh? This is the hardest one yet.

Time For a Come Back!

Well, in preparation for my family's upcoming move to Georgia, we have a painter giving us a rough estimate of sorts. I'm exiled into another room in the house so I figured now would be as good a time as any to write the return entry (so ya'll know I haven't given up yet and so I can fess up)

Its been a rough couple months as far as my diet goes. I've been longing for the warm weather, to get back on the trail. I love zumba and all but I really long for my long walks. And if anyone knows about the north east this winter, you know it's been bad. for about 1.5 miles it's cleared and plowed, but from there on it's not. So even though a lot of our snow is gone, there's a lot of ice over there still, so it might be a while before its gone. I may end up just braving it. I can't just walk in circles over the mile-half. I might as while walk on my treadmill :p

So while I was in Vancouver I found it all too easy to fall into my old snacking habits. Into the "Oh, I'm on vacation, I can let it slide." I hate that. Now that I'm back, I've been having a hard time getting back into my old routines. So far i've been working out every other day because the days in between I've been letting my body chill. Next week i'll try to kick things up again though. I was able to do flat abs twice yesterday, which was good, and while I'm not sore today, i'm really stiff. I need to book an appointment to my chiropractor. So I think getting out to walk will be good for me soon...

But on the other hand, I have had about two days where I've actually stayed on my points. I am allowed 23, and that's not a lot (compared to the 30 I started with) and I've been kinda idle lately and watching a lot of TV and whatever, and i'm an snacker when I watch things so thats not good... but I'm thinking I'll get things back in order this month and all will be well! I will once again become the diet nazi I was and try to *not* starve myself rather than eat too much.

Ah, in conclusion, I've gained about 4lbs since we last spoke, i'm not sure if any of that is bloating, but there it is. 4lbs. Grumble. But it's time to get serious again. Return to the old strategy of eating as little as possible so I can eat at night :p it's not ideal, but thats where it is. Hello, my name is Jane and I'm a nighttime snacker. *shrug* I'll see ya'll monday.

February Hiatus

Does it seem like I hiatus a lot? It does to me... Well this month is very busy for me (Heck, I didn't post last week) my boyfriend is coming to visit me for the next few days, then my sister, her husband and my nephew are coming to visit, directly after that I'm going to Vancouver for a week and then it's March. Crazies. So I'm going to be pudging it up for a while... I'll be working out when I can, but it's gonna be crazy in the life-of-Jane. I'm a month ahead on weight loss though, so at least if I maintain, I won't be falling behind!

See ya'll in March!

double mile-stone month!

Yeah! I hit -65 today! (getting right down to it) despite having the hardest time ever switching down to 23 points, daily. I apparently am very good at 24 points. But I must try harder! I have someone visiting this week though, so maybe if I try really hard I can maintain.. Haha!

So, I have a couple things to talk about this week:

Something amusing occurred to me this week, while I'm working out, during oblique exercises, I'm finding that there less stretching along with me. Meaning... love handles are starting to go away. Which is a very strange feeling! A wonderfully strange thing, but it doesn't feel right, or, the same. Absolutely blows my mind. I love losing weight!

So I've been complaining lately to my mom about how I have nothing to wear except for my work shirts (which are getting too big too) and how I have nothing I can wear to church because everything it falling off me (as I was trying not to buy winter clothes since I am moving before next winter and all of last years shirts are XXL) So she decided to take me to the outlets to buy some new clothes (winter sales are awesome, btw.) and I knew I needed to start getting a Large at Old Navy, but then when I was trying on an XL at AT Loft... it was way too big. I was shocked. Even when I tried on at Banana Republic I took larges. I'VE LOST A SHIRT SIZE! Yahoo!!! So big thank you to mom for buying me a new wardrobe. I love losing weight.

Total Loss:

-65/93

Pants: 16

Shirt: L

Ease on Down

Not really a whole lot to say this week, knocked down 2 more lbs, which brings us to -63.... Which is a big milestone for me. It's how much I weighed in high school (though I could swear I looked better then...) when I was on the "low carb" diet of fail. But anyway, I'm SUPER excited to have hit this weight, I haven't been here in, oh, 8 years, so it's very exciting! :) my 16s are starting to fit very nicely which for me is the next step to them being too big, but i'm not nearly to THAT point quite yet. :) 30 more lbs (tentatively) for this road block! Woo!

Until next week!

Total Loss:

-63/93

The Difference in Me

Good morning! I had one awful week, but not the kind of stress that didn't make me not want to do anything, but work even harder. That, on top of other reasons... is why I'm here to tell you I dropped 4 lbs. But, I maintained last week, so i guess this just kinda makes up for it. But it's still kinda fun to drop that kind of weight in one week. I was kind of worried that I would get off schedule for a little bit. What was my big thing this week? Zumba: Flat Abs. Hahaha! Okay, so if you know me, you know that my middle is my problem area. So I guess I feel better working one specific area. Well, when I came across a day when my Sculpt and Tone DVD wasn't working, I did Flat Abs twice (it's only like, 20 minutes) and let me tell you how my muscles did not thank me. but I thought I'd give the idea one more try (because I need help in the brain, or something) and I'm actually feeling fine today! Thats very exciting. Flat Abs is the funnest of the Zumba series for me. And I'm loving the results... Sooo... this might be a growing trend :)

Total Loss:

-61/93

Ok, now we're back

ok, so last week was a bomb because new years, and "2nd christmas" at my house... sooo I'm happy to say I maintained, sad to say I am not closer to -60 quite yet. but the month is young and so am I.

So you probably expect me to do a "new years" type post, but I'm actually going to hold off on that for the beginning of next month, for the anniversary of my blog and the start of the road block challenge :)

Until next week!

Total loss:

-57/93

Aaaand we're back

Welcome back to real life everyone. Christmas is over and save new years eve, it's time to get back on track!

The weight in of the morning showed... not only that I maintained, but that I *lost*. It was sort of on the edge of what coooould be declared of 3 lbs, but I think I'll be safe and say I lost 2, which brings us to -57! I may hit 60 in January after all! I was nervous for a while. But anyway, now I'll be filling my system with water and weight-watchers instead of coffee and cookies. Haha!! I zumba'd today as I will be doing until it's warm again :(

I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas!

Total Loss:

-57/93

Ah the Holiday Hiatus.

Yes. I have been cooking and eating and having no time to worry about diet!
Stupid holidays!!!
I seriously can't wait to get back on track. But I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas tomorrow, and hope everyone has a wonderful day. Enjoy these last days of the holidays because after tomorrow ITS BACK TO REAL LIFE. (Noooo says everyone --Yay, for me!) I will be posting on monday to tell you the damage done this month and it'll be time to get back to business and lose it!!!

Holidays are Joyful

Hello again!
It is snowing today, in CT. I don't like snow very much, but the light stuff is okay with me. It's only when it becomes a hassle to drive in do I hate it.
But the weather is not why you're tuning in! Since I last checked in, I have lost *drumroll* 3 lbs!! which brings us to the beautiful step called -55!! Still right on track to end the Road Block by August. :)

And commence the introspective part of the blog:
I've been thinking about self-esteem, and my lack of it. I have a very odd sense of esteem. I think it is most generically described like this: I think I'm pretty, but I don't think other people think I'm pretty. And that same idea spans across a lot of my thinking about things. There are other people who are much bigger than me, but if they have that sense of self-worth... don't they seem more beautiful? :/ What I'm trying to say is I'm finding that getting thin isn't, in the end, going to give me the confidence I desire. Because no matter how good I think I look, or charming, or bubbly.... I still won't think anyone else thinks the same things I do. So I don't know how I will change that, but I am certainly going to try.

Total loss: -55/93

checking in

Hey Ya'll~ (<-- What? Paula Deen in the house?)

I just wanted to check in since I haven't posted since I had gone to GA. We (royal we?) are maintaining at -52 (DESPITE thanksgiving and the catered food of amazing at my workplace) So I'm feeling really good about what my metabolism has accomplished for me. haha! I actually had gained some weight but dropped it quickly from being in GA and eating yummy grease (Oh Cracker Barrel.) But come monday, we're getting back on track and maybe I'm jinxing myself, but I think this mini eat-a-thon is going to show good things for the future as now my body isn't strictly formed around making sure I don't go over my daily 25 pts (which, in 2lbs will be 24. *cry* Remember when I could eat like 28?)
Though I do laugh to think that had I not gotten sick upon returning to the north, I would have hit 55 in Nov as well. Ah. Well, maybe if I'm very good (and lucky) my body will do 10 next month and hit 60. (Wouldn't that be sweet?!)

Oh so, when I started this diet, I thought to myself, I wish I had one of those like, thermometers charts to mark how I'm doing. I actually happened to have an extra white board I had planned to keep track of my homework with (never got past my first assignments in Sept 09) So I made one! it went up to 50, and then marked "Party". Well, when I hit 50 I was like "Holy crap, I didn't actually expect this thing to fill." so I made a much sadder looking one to the right of it going to my actual goal weight. (-93) Sometimes I think it's the key to my success. haha. Having something to work towards. Making that mark every month and working towards being able to mark two of them if at all possible :)))

But anyway, I hope all my friends are doing well on their diets and keeping strong. It's hardest at the beginning, girls. But I have loads of faith in you all :D

It's Beginning to Look A Lot Like ... Winter...

Lost 2 lbs this week (again) so that brings us to -52lbs! On track for being done with this whole "Road Block" thing within the next 9 months.

Not too much to say this week, I had lunch out this week which was delicious, but... It made me start to think about how over-eating really is an addiction. Like, I can control myself a lot better than I used to. But it's still hard. I still want to totally binge at night. Have a drink. Plain ol' not worry about proportions. And I think, how easy would it be to just fall back into old habits? "When the going gets rough" and all that. It's like the +50 lb girl inside is ever wanting to seep back onto my skin.

Maybe I make this sound more extreme than it is, rest assured, I am not about to forget all that I accomplished. Oh my gosh, I'm in the process of setting new habits and every day, every week that girl who I was in January slowly disappears. It's still a struggle, like any addiction, and it will always be there... but it's not strong enough for me quite yet :) I'm looking forward to holidays and watching them pass with ease. Weight Watchers is good enough to give us flex points and I do believe that they half-created them with holidays in mind.

Okay, I guess I do have a lot to say this week. haha, up coming this week my parents and I are taking our first trip down to GA. Well, my first trip. So you know what that meannsss! Eating out 24/7 ... I may have to take a week off from the blog while I get myself back to a good place. I'm going to do my best to make good choices (Fish, salad, unfried/creamy/etc. chicken) but wish me luck :) there are going to be heavier breakfasts involved than I used to... and worst, no working out. (NOOOOOoooo....) So ... yay. ugh.

So I know I forgot to do my before and afters this past week, so here they are now. I know its a shocker that I'd hide away from the camera, but I seriously could not find any full bodies of me pre-diet-that's-working, so heres the best I could find. I think you'll be shocked :)

Obviously, still a ways to go, but wow what a difference 10 months make, right? :)

Total Loss:

-52/93

Killer!!

Man! I am about ready to stab my scale in the face! I lost 2 lbs this week. which bring us to -49. COME ONNNN I couldn't get that last pound?! It was a fun 10 days of Zumba! OH! Lets see if I fit into the pants I bought now. I am positive I didn't lose a pant size, but if I could wear the jeans I just bought, that'd be great. Yess!!! They do! yahoo! Those are my Old Navy 16s. Which are what I base my size on. I haven't been in these in oh, 7 years. :) And this was the size I got to before my late high school weight gain, so very exciting times for me! now I have to wait for my upper half t fit into an L and it'll be just like old times. :))) (stupid last pound!!!)

Editttt- Dear edit, I love you. I really don't know when the first weigh of the morning stopped being my lowest XD But I definitely am -50 now!!!!!! YAHOOOOOO!!!!!! Over the week I will do a before & after at this general mid point of my weight loss journey :))) Dang, me!!! I rock.

Total Loss: -50/93

Pants:16

Shirts: XL

Zumba~ Que te Mueve!

*breathes a sigh of relief* I didn't know how this would go today!! After two weeks of maintaining, eating beyond flex points (on purpose), and starting zumba, I was about ready to GAIN!

Why, Jane, why in the world would you gain after starting zumba? Well let me tell you! I walk. That is my form of exercise, right? Well, walking isn't exactly working your muscles like crazy. Well it did at one point, but that was at the beginning of the year. Zumba is a muscle KILLERRRR haha! So muscle weighs more than fat, so I thought it was perfectly plausible that I would gain. BUT NO! I lost 2lbs!!! My friends, that brings me to -47! :D 3lbs till I hit -50! how crazy is that?

Right now I'm on the 3rd day of a 10 day zumba program that declares you'll lose a pant size. I am joyfully skeptical. Of course, as I kind of suck at two of the workouts, I dunno, but maybe it will be enough to get me into my 16s I bought from ON :D :D :D I'm rather optimistic about what zumba is going to do for me though. Like, I'm not even worried about the number going down (that much) because I swear I can already SEE small differences in my body after 1 week.

Thank you to everyone who keeps supporting me on this journey! I really couldn't do it without you :)

Until next week!!

Total Loss: -47/83