Things I Never Expected.

It's one of those exciting mid-week posts!!

Well, first off, I hit -45 so thats exciting :D although I kind of doubt losing anymore for the week.

Today my bff and I went to Newport, RI to visit the mansions and I ate horridly. This included Lobster ravioli in a cream sauce and Ben and Jerry's ice cream (Coffee Coffee, Buzzbuzzbuzz--which is amazing, btw) which I'm pretty sure blew all my point right there. But that's what flex points are for, and I hardly use mine.

But now the EXCITINGGG part happened on the way home. We stopped at the outlets to browse. My friends, I tried on a pair of size 16 Liz Claiborn jeans AND.THEY.FIT. *does the skinny dance*

Then as we went into Banana Republic because it is bff's favorite store (possibly next to J.Crew) As I browsed around I said "It's going to be bad when I can fit into this store." She said "You probably do. They go up to XL.." now that doesn't always mean anything, but I decided, what the heck, I'll try some stuff on... and officially went into "bad" mode. She can vouch for me. I went giddy. Tried on the first shirt. Terrified, looked into the mirror to see.... Me. Looking. Hott. LOL okay, not hott. But it fit! Everything I tried on fit! *does the skinny dance!!!*

My friends I'm ecstatic! So motivated and in the realization that I'm starting to actually... look good. Whoa.

Oh!

I've been trying to deny it ever since I woke up. I can't believe it. -44. Look at me, I can barely talk about it. 199. Me.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

This is SO freakin' exciting! And I'm surprised how in denial I am about it too. "No. That can't be right." as it's staring me in the face on the scale. Wow!!! Now, what did I do differently this week? Oh. A ton of things.

1)I decided it was time to increase my walking distance. I'm walking further and faster so I really had no excuse not to push myself. I started walking 5 miles and it takes me about 90 minutes. I don't know if that's good or not for someone like me who has stubs for legs. haha

2)I started eating breakfast. I would try to eat breakfast sometimes, but this week I decided it was time to really START. Of course, I never eat breakfast, so this was a lot harder than you'd think. I never would have something more than 2 points... but I tried to eat 2 points. along with my 2 points of coffee.

3)I actually ate most, if not all my points worth everyday. I can have 26 (now 25) points and during my time trying to eat only 20 (the weight watchers lowest you should eat.) and it occurred to me that I have that many points for a reason. It's not a bad thing to eat all my points. I'm supposed to. So I have been. I wonder how many phases of trying to "eat less to lose faster" it's going to take before I realize that doesn't work.

4)I'm teaching myself to snack on veggies. It's not like I don't adore some veggies enough to snack on them. Last sunday I bought myself this container of carrot sticks (because they were so stinkin' cute) and it just totally put me on this streak. So I've been eating like that at night which definitely works for me. So much better than what I was doing.

And of course, I have everyone who's been supporting me to thank too. :) Without your constant encouragement I couldn't do this. I don't think I talk too much about my struggles (and I do. Oh I do.) and you all show so much love and support and it helps more than I can explain.

I have not been at this weight since... 2004ish? (sadly, that was on the way of gaining too.) So this is like... starting a new journey. I know things are only going to get harder from here. And there will be a ton of things working against me in the foreseeable future. But I'm excited!

Total Weight Loss: -44/80

*twiddles thumbs*

So this is it. the last few pounds, right? Gaaaaaaahhhhh must.get.under.200!!!! Not this week though. Only lost 1lb. Probably would have been 2, except that I couldn't go walking for the last two days because my legs are sore from squatting to wash the blinds. (6 hours straight. and I didn't want to break it into two days)

Annyyyway. Hopefully I de-sore SOON because I need to get out there and walk. and lose these last 3 lbs! 199... almost in reach!!! I haven't been under 200 since before I was in college, so this is just amazing to me!

Total loss: -41/80

The last days of summer

I was getting a little frustrated this week. My scale jumped me up a few lbs and wasn't getting rid of them. I started weighing myself on my parents scale because it's non digital and (I'd like to think) more accurate. With only 2lbs before hitting 40 I was kinda determined this week and still, I only lost 1lb, but that is better than none and I'm sure I'll hit -40 before the end of the week (probably tomorrow or something haha) My new goal in life is to try and eat less at night. Until I can do that, I can't really say eat more during the day instead. I don't trust myself enough! I also need to take a multi vitamin or something like normal people. And I should start doing some strength training. Soo close to being under 200. Very exciting times for me :D

Total loss: -39/80

EDIT:

Oh I love editing. Weighed myself again and hellooooo I hit -40 :D Happy days indeed!

Bikers in the rain play chicken with walkers.

... Just saying. Today it is rather drizzly but not enough to stop me from going walking, which I jump at the chance to when I have time (now that it's cold.... -- Oh how I loved putting on my hoodie that has become abnormally too big for me) So I went out expecting to be the only person in the parking lot, but there were a good 5-6 cars already there. I was surprised! but that's nothing compared to a normal day so I was still kind of excited about not getting run over by bikers. Oh how I dream. Twice within the first 20 minutes of my walk (I walk about an hour or so, depending) bikers were on my side of the trail... and not moving. For the first one, he kept edging closer to the gravel bit of the path, so I gave up on him and started moving towards the other side of the path. He moved to my exact line of walking and only about 20-30 ft away did he finally move over. It was very annoying. I think he might have actually been trying to mess with me. The other biker was a pair and one was in each "lane" which I run into fairly frequently, but it was still irksome because she nearly clipped me.

But enough of my horror stories on the trail ( not much for horror, but...) The weigh in of the week comes to -38!!!! Woohoo!!! 3lbs this week! I've been trying to get back into the habit of writing everything down because it does keep me more accountable, but I have to admit i haven't been on my best behavior, but I guess the trail has been making up for that. If all goes well, I should hit -40 next week! Getting closer and closer to being under 200 and i cannot even express how amazing that feels. If I hit 40 next week, I'll be back on schedule (Sad that I'm not ahead anymore. Curse you, vacation!!!!) but I'm becoming fearful for the holidays... I am a crazy cookie baker.... Anyone want any?

Total Loss: -38/80

Heeeeere's Janie!

HELLO!!!!!!!

Hiatus is OVER! Posting before Monday, but whatever, right? I don't know why, but I didn't want to post until I had lost the weight I gained over my summer adventures. Which, before I left I was at -33, I believe. I hit that about 2 weeks ago and I was frustrated a little bit because I wasn't going anywhere. I ate less, a lot less than I should have been and wasn't losing. So last week I kinda gave up on that and ate like a normal human (on a WW diet) and poof. I start losing. Simply proving that starving yourself isn't healthy and doesn't do anything for your weight (at least, not for a while, I guess) and makes you cranky and tired. Heck I made pumpkin cookies and I've been eating those and still lost weight... not that I'm going to make that a habit.

Anyway, Deonna and I decided to buckle down and start walking again. It's still nasty hot and humid, but whatever. We both need to get back out there on the trail. 2 miles is still too little for me though, so if I can get myself out there, back to the 4+ miles! Gosh, I can walk forever!

So, as a good start back into the blog, I am at -35!!!!!! YAY!!! I am less than 10 lbs away from being under 200 and I cannot tell you how excited I am and motivated I am to keep it up :D

Total loss: -35/80 (almost half way!!!)

Hiatus?

Hey everyone, (no one) It's been what, like 3 weeks? My friend Anne came to visit me for a couple weeks and so I had to... eat (dun dun dunnn) So I lost all the weight I gained, at that, but next week, I'm headed to CA for a couple weeks and, while I'm going to try and "eat right" you gotta eat CA food, right? So I guess I'm calling hiatus until I get back from that. My weight's not really going anywhere except on a mini roller coaster. haha. I'm not giving up, it's just summer and I'm usually not even this busy during summer, but here we are.