Lets cut to the chase. I am basically obese. As much as I hate to admit that. I look in the mirror and I don't see me anymore. I hate that; I hate that a lot. I had another online journal, but I needed something, somewhere I could write about my attempts at finally kicking the 80 lbs to get to my goal weight. I have been struggling with weight my entire life. I've been on a million different diets. Once I was 20 lbs away from my goal, but I got too comfortable or something and I gained it back... and then some, at this point. I know this isn't going to be easy. I'm an emotional eater, I'm a boredom eater, I'm lazy and unmotivated and these are things I need to change.
I want to use this journal for anything and everything that has to do with me and my weight. If I'm stressed and I want to eat, I intend to come here to vent instead. If I want to talk about how excited I am about walking a certain distance, I'll come here. You get the idea. :)
I just started trying to turn my life around, I'm starting to walk on my treadmill... I hope that within a month or two I'll be able to jog for more than 5 minutes, haha. But for now, I'm just trying to get myself motivated. I'm doing pilates too, which I love. It's very amusing to attempt some of the moves that having a gut kind of limits. I'm getting better though.
Having a guy in my life used to motivate me, but it's been a while, and I need to learn how to do something for myself, anyway.
As for diets, I'm doing weight watchers. Not officially, I don't go to meetings, but the general point system.
For now I won't say my weight number, because I really don't think that matters. I'll tell you the facts.
Pants: 20
Shirt: XXL
I'll post when those change. Though it will probably be a while.
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