Merrrr...

I knew this day was coming.

I have been losing even through my "woman-time" from the beginning, but apparently this month will be different. I gained 1 lb this week :/ I'm going to make sure I keep to my points like crazy this week, of course. I just really hope this passes and we can get back to business.

I get really nervous when this happens. I know how my mind works. I keep losing, so I keep doing what I need to do. But when I maintain, or gain...its harder. Plus, I'm about to start working so I know my work out routine is about to take a turn (of course, now I'll be on my feet almost all day) and I'm going to have to find a way to GET myself up to walking before I go into work... I *know* it won't happen after.

When I worked at Sears over the holidays I lost major weight for no good reason, even though I had been working out (doing the Biggest Loser DVDs) so maybe working will help too? I suppose we shall find out! I'm a very routine based person, so I hope I make this transition quickly so I can get back to business!!!!!

Total Loss: 15/80

Weekend Post~

Hey all (no one),

I wanted to pop on and talk about what I'm doing this weekend/ beginning of next week. I'm going on a mini vacay (so needed.) and so I'm going to weigh in on Sunday (again)

Of course Im worried about how this vacation is going to go and I am going to TRY and stick to my diet as well I can, but I'm not going to kill myself and give up new opportunities to try things that I'll never have a chance to try. I haven't used my flex points in weeks, so I wanna! haha! No, really, we're going to be on the coast, which means SEAFOOD!! and *that* is okay. I'll just stay away from the beer battered fillets. ;)

The hotel we're staying at has an exercise room which I intend to take advantage of, I think they have ellipticals which I haven't used in forever and I would love to spend 30-45 minutes on. :D those things are the freaking best. I know Deonna intends to work out as well, plus! swimming! we'll do laps and all that fun stuff. I'm really not too worried. But of course, I also know me when I go on vacations. Throw diet to the wind! Time to not care! Nope! and I will have two (three?) other people there to make sure I don't leave the straight and narrow ;)

But anyway! See you Sunday for the weeks wrap up. Bright and early before I leave!

FONDUTA!

Happy Sunday!

Before I put in the last of my homework, I wanted to tell ya'll I got to fill in the 3rd slot in my chart! YES! I have lost 15 lbs :D wooooo! Super exciting!

I weighed myself early because Deonna and I went out to the Olive Garden and I wanted to use my flex points and eat fonduta (a special dish) and I didn't want that to mess with my weight... is that cheating?

Deonna says I should write a book about my weight loss experience, and I think if I make it through I just might! I mean... I really am someone who has struggled with my weight my entire life, and doing this has been amazing. I mean, I went into this so differently than I usually do. I usually am trying to look good for a guy. Or trying to fit into a dress. but once the guy falls through and the recital is over... whats the point? This time... it's about me. Me and seeing myself in the mirror. Seeing myself in the mirror and not being disgusted by that person. Feeling confident, pretty, worthwhile. I'm doing this for me. Not for a dress, not for a boy, not because I have to.... Because if I don't I will lose myself.

Since I started... 3 months ago... I have changed. I'm more confident. I'm happier, more energetic, and I'm starting to see ME again. I mean, of course day to day is different. Somedays I look at myself and say, has anything really changed? or, Why are my clothes not BIG on me yet? Probably because they didn't fit me before, but in those moments... it's hard. I want to make a change in me and I am. But the big picture will not come immediately and sometimes... that's hard.

Okay, I think thats enough rambling for now!

Have a great week everybody.

Total Loss: 15/80

MIDWEEKPOSTWHAATTT?!

HI!

Not a weight check in or anything, just felt like rattling about myself like a twerp. :D

So before I went walking today, my mom said she could tell I was losing weight, which, after losing 12 lbs, I really hope so !! XD; But you know, she's the first one to say it, so it means a lot :)

I have been loving walking on the bike trail with my best friend, we'll call her Deonna. I think it's really good for us, we're walking and just talking about anything and everything. Nothing deep (so far) and its been really fun :) the walk is a snap. I sweated today! So I'm all yaaaayyy its getting warmer!

I'm now trying to remember why I wanted to write in here today, oh yeah! EASTER. Ohhhh easter. Lots of chocolate. and yummys. I mean, I've decided I'm not going to worry too hard on sunday about what I eat. Not meaning I'm going to totally binge, but I'm not going to count (noooooo!) but its certainly going to be interesting... I really hope to lose 2 lbs but my aunt flow has come to visit for the holiday, so I won't be surprised if I don't lose at all. :( Just keep on plugging away.

I have been drinking a LOT of water lately. like 9-15 cups a day. at least 9, because I use Poland Spring sports bottles which have 3 cups. and I drink 3 of those and then sometimes I just drink more XD;

okay. done mid-week babbling. Have a great Easter!