Before I put in the last of my homework, I wanted to tell ya'll I got to fill in the 3rd slot in my chart! YES! I have lost 15 lbs :D wooooo! Super exciting!
I weighed myself early because Deonna and I went out to the Olive Garden and I wanted to use my flex points and eat fonduta (a special dish) and I didn't want that to mess with my weight... is that cheating?
Deonna says I should write a book about my weight loss experience, and I think if I make it through I just might! I mean... I really am someone who has struggled with my weight my entire life, and doing this has been amazing. I mean, I went into this so differently than I usually do. I usually am trying to look good for a guy. Or trying to fit into a dress. but once the guy falls through and the recital is over... whats the point? This time... it's about me. Me and seeing myself in the mirror. Seeing myself in the mirror and not being disgusted by that person. Feeling confident, pretty, worthwhile. I'm doing this for me. Not for a dress, not for a boy, not because I have to.... Because if I don't I will lose myself.
Since I started... 3 months ago... I have changed. I'm more confident. I'm happier, more energetic, and I'm starting to see ME again. I mean, of course day to day is different. Somedays I look at myself and say, has anything really changed? or, Why are my clothes not BIG on me yet? Probably because they didn't fit me before, but in those moments... it's hard. I want to make a change in me and I am. But the big picture will not come immediately and sometimes... that's hard.
Okay, I think thats enough rambling for now!
Have a great week everybody.
Total Loss: 15/80
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