Aaaand we're back

Welcome back to real life everyone. Christmas is over and save new years eve, it's time to get back on track!

The weight in of the morning showed... not only that I maintained, but that I *lost*. It was sort of on the edge of what coooould be declared of 3 lbs, but I think I'll be safe and say I lost 2, which brings us to -57! I may hit 60 in January after all! I was nervous for a while. But anyway, now I'll be filling my system with water and weight-watchers instead of coffee and cookies. Haha!! I zumba'd today as I will be doing until it's warm again :(

I hope everyone had a wonderful christmas!

Total Loss:

-57/93

Ah the Holiday Hiatus.

Yes. I have been cooking and eating and having no time to worry about diet!
Stupid holidays!!!
I seriously can't wait to get back on track. But I wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas tomorrow, and hope everyone has a wonderful day. Enjoy these last days of the holidays because after tomorrow ITS BACK TO REAL LIFE. (Noooo says everyone --Yay, for me!) I will be posting on monday to tell you the damage done this month and it'll be time to get back to business and lose it!!!

Holidays are Joyful

Hello again!
It is snowing today, in CT. I don't like snow very much, but the light stuff is okay with me. It's only when it becomes a hassle to drive in do I hate it.
But the weather is not why you're tuning in! Since I last checked in, I have lost *drumroll* 3 lbs!! which brings us to the beautiful step called -55!! Still right on track to end the Road Block by August. :)

And commence the introspective part of the blog:
I've been thinking about self-esteem, and my lack of it. I have a very odd sense of esteem. I think it is most generically described like this: I think I'm pretty, but I don't think other people think I'm pretty. And that same idea spans across a lot of my thinking about things. There are other people who are much bigger than me, but if they have that sense of self-worth... don't they seem more beautiful? :/ What I'm trying to say is I'm finding that getting thin isn't, in the end, going to give me the confidence I desire. Because no matter how good I think I look, or charming, or bubbly.... I still won't think anyone else thinks the same things I do. So I don't know how I will change that, but I am certainly going to try.

Total loss: -55/93